The iLLuminating Eye!

Infinitely me

2011-10-10T11:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I don't realize my own creativity but i know that it lingers somewhere in the the deep catacombs of my brain. One day I will be able to buy my first home with my imaginative thoughts. There would be nothing else I want in the world more than to own a home with knowing my imagination paid for it.

The passion stirs quite often, and in fast motion only to one day release into the universe of ideas, thoughts, and spectacular manifestations. One could only understand the importance the life of "ideal immortality." Write down all thoughts and feelings of happiness and they shall forever exist in our human-o-spheric of beliefs and ideas

It is the itty bitty leaf falling from the tree that inspires me. For its strength and nourishment then proven itself its fall from branch home. Sticking to my guns and to not become influenced by the minor bullshit that happens to sprout about lately; That's exactly how I need to dally my days from here on. I am a sponge; soft, delicate, an object which soaks up liquidy volumes of substance whether it be messy or pure. Anything that crosses my path I take into consideration that it lied itself in front me for a reason. . .right?

The Matter of Factly

2011-10-04T16:16:00.000-07:00

Lately I haven't had the appetite to indulge in my happenings, but I want to get back to my writing/blogging game and score some touchdowns.

Its not easy to sit at a blank square with a million thoughts in my head to surge into and lay out on the chopping block to expose. But I do in fact know that the expression of my domain completely dedicates itself of doing just that, expressing. The year is now 2011 and on it's merrily way towards 2012.

What are we to make of this matter and even the anti-matter. Do we sit and make nothing of it, or do we toss it around with a scalpel underneath a magnifying glass. One thing I do know is that this day to day living is quite the gift; in which I haven't had the opportunity to really experience what its like to not have to worry about homework and due dates. It feels a bit disturbing, yet liberating and the reason this freedom of movement tickles me differently is only because I always overload my life with bullshit and school, trying to keep myself busy and away from the inevitable. While I was in school, I would beg and banter that a day would simply open up for me to come up for air. I have taken the semester off and now have all the room and air I need; so much that I don't even know what to do with all the breathing room.

Life, well my life at least, has taken many twists and turns lately, but for to finally be on a clear open road weirds me out; just a tad. The month is October and I now go into my major cupcake mode snuggled with my honeybun. . .(sigh) and lately On rainy days, you'll find me tucked tightly with my nose in a good novel.

2011-07-07T14:35:00.000-07:00

"Don’t let the enemy lie to you and tell you that God is blessing everyone else but you. Look for the ways He is pouring out blessing in your life." -Joel & Victoria Osteen

This prayer really pushed me back and shook me up a bit. It put me in my place and really made me realize the things in my life currently, I need to put the pieces back together

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father in heaven, thank You for loving and accepting me. I choose to do what is right and honor You with my attitude, words and actions. Holy Spirit, show me if there is anything in my life that isn’t pleasing to You and help me live as an example of Your goodness all the days of my life. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen

the Me-ness of My Reality

2011-06-23T13:19:00.000-07:00

I really don't consider myself a blogger, but a person who has a lot of shit on her mind which stands in the way of me blogging/writing on a regular.

I wish I had more space in my head to direct my attention towards this blog to express the minor nothings that seem to be soooooo important in other peoples playgrounds. lol

The opportunities that lie across my feet weigh down my urge to take the next step further. I thought that this is what I wanted but in reality its everything with a hint of hypoallergenic bullshit. Most don't know what I'm talking about, but there has been one time or another you have found yourself in my shoes thinking/feeling the same way. If you haven't, don't worry, that day will for surely approach. Breath by breath, second by second, moment by moment; I suck in every bit of oxygen my lungs allow to process the moments and opportunities that lay ever so heavily on my feet hindering me from taking the next step further. It seems easy enough to simply lift the opportunity anchor up from my feet and jump, but how will I land once I take that leap?

All I'm left with is this beautiful weather to aid me through the next 12 months of age. I will be turning 24 on Monday, June 27, 2011. It feels so good to actually look back and see all the balogna I've gone through and embrace the many happy, sad, enticing, life challenges ahead of me. Obsess myself with my future and tinker away at my masterpiece.

What HE said!!!

2011-05-16T14:53:00.000-07:00

Yooooo. . .this is what I have been trying to preach to MF's from day one!

and Enlightened one!

artists who dont fall into the diamonds, cars, clothes. . Prodigy!

fuck outta heah!

I LOVE LITTLE DRAGON!!!

2011-04-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

Yourstru.ly Presents: Little Dragon "Little Man" from Yours Truly on Vimeo.

need I say more. . .

fuggin dope!

W O W

2011-04-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

Everyone knows this guy for the huge empire he has built. But what leaves me skeptical are the scandal upon scandals that lay underneath him. I personally have not voted and probably never will; only because of shit like this keeps happening in our elections, and our American citizens actually fall for stunts like "first black President" and electing people who need strings pulled from behind them to walk, talk and sign bills. Trump may have a history of success in real estate, yet he fails to grab me for his vote or for me to actually start voting for that matter. I will not condone with "celebrities" running for ANY type of political power. Although, I agree with the points he makes about Obama, our nations debt, and china; I just simply cannot wrap my head around voting this mofo for P R E S I D E N T!

2011-04-13T10:58:00.000-07:00

OFWGKTA Vice Photoshoot from Terry Richardson on Vimeo.

This made me laugh. . . hehehe

Enlighten Me

2011-04-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of seeing blogs and posts of others that post something they "must have" or somewhere they "need to be(vacationing)" or showing off "what they wore" and "where they bought it from." Honestly, who the hell cares?

We are all fabricated of the same elements of this earth, so why are we so concentrated on such things that are simply temporary. Embrace the blue skies, the green leaves, the soil beneath our feet, and the crisp air as it enters your lungs. Yeah, I would love a pair of $800 pair of Italian heels but, eventually the soles of those heels will wear out, and then what?

Money comes and goes, no matter how much you have in the bank whether it be $600,000 to 6 red cents. We all have the opportunity to breathe in, breathe out, and connect with one another. We are all human whom have emotions and thoughts running through our head every single second of the day. We are all human.

My mission on this earth, planet, a rock in which we call home, is to connect with every living being I come in contact with. Be it plant, animal, or human; I want to make an impression on each and every living organism.

I'm just seriously tired of seeing post from a lot of blog members posting about stupid shit that will one day not even matter (materialistic shit) . My point is, post something or THINK of something that may enlighten the next fellow inquisitive-er.

The Jealous Guys - Brainwashed By London

2011-03-28T11:12:00.000-07:00

This Duo needs no, tits, ass, platinum chains to make an impression to your eyes and ears; just a dope ass Low-rider and their talent smothered voices. The Jealous Guys lack a colorful video, but leave it to your imagination to mind-fuck your inception imaged brain. "Brainwashed by London" delivers a scale of extremity with such simplicity. Like they say, Less is more; The Jealous Guys embodied every bit of effortless mascara into this track and video. The emotion, body language, and thumped beat grabs you in silent yet threatening manner that lets you know they have entered the scene and are here to stay.

soo effing dope

-JYB

R.I.P

2011-03-28T09:42:00.000-07:00

NATE IN '08 (MIXED BY DJ STEVE1DER) by DJ STEVE1DER

Again, my morning search for dope tracks to add to McFly (my ipod's name), I happen to come across this sick ass compilation of the "Infamous Regulator," NATE DOGG. I know the his passing has blown over and cleared in the blogosphere headlines, but who could pass up a download like this? I fell in love as soon as I pressed play. Much props to the DJ who put this together; he embodied every bit of the West Coast G-funk, Gangsta Lean to his mix. Everyone bow down, b-cause this shit rocks!!

Stunningly Robed in Truth

2011-03-24T16:41:00.000-07:00

Totally fascinated with every bit of this gentleman. Parallel minds connect sonically and with that being said. Michele completely left a great impression on me.

so dope

I LOVE HER

2011-03-23T10:51:00.000-07:00

if you see no shadows, it means you are not standing in the light!

I had to work at the Lady Gaga show at the Oracle Arena last night and was totally moved my her genuine love she showed her fans. She took the time out to sign a poster for someone who was sitting in the front seat. I thought that was magnificent. I never liked her music, and probably never will, but her lyric game is on point and I love who she is as a person and that she doesn't give a fuck about what anyone thinks of her. It truly inspires me to show more of myself that I tend to cover up with the mask of "society thinks this is cool" type of shit. I'm so grateful that I got to see her perform and not only that it was free. I have a love hate relationship with my 2nd job. :) I love it because I get to work rad shows like Lady Gaga, Prince, and Aerosmith (just to name a few) but I have to stay super late and its usually on a weekend. :(

From now on. . . you will see my evolution into the birth of the deep, dark, brighter being I always hide. I hide it because I'm always scared someone is judging me. I simply don't care anymore

2011-03-18T10:18:00.000-07:00

Kenyon Phillips for Stylelikeu.com from StyleLikeU on Vimeo.

I loved this video!

I came across it by sifting through the list of Blogs I have saved as a bookmark. I could really feel through his eyes and body language that he meant every word he said. His wardrobe doesn't have to consist of much because he's already making a statement by simply being alive without anything holding onto him.

Think About It

2011-03-04T13:44:00.000-08:00

"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, yet more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space, but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; big men and small character; steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes, but more divorce; fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember to say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent. Remember to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." — Dr. Bob Moorehead, The Paradox of Our Age

Catch Phrases

2011-03-03T09:33:00.000-08:00

this made me laugh

Friday Unproductivity

2011-02-25T15:20:00.000-08:00

okay so today I have been under the heavy influence of "Unproductivity."

So what, its not a real word, (at least, I don't think it is) but I'm giving myself credit for at least my brain thinking a little bit. I have a 5 page paper due next Wednesday and have not even begun to research topics I would like to dig up some bullshit on.

So far I have thought about conspiracies but then I thought that conspiracies holds a platform of complete vagueness. Conspiracies on what? The first moon landing? 911 "terrorist" attacks? There are many topics that birth the lively-hood of conspiracies and I would like to say I believe in them 100%. Fuck what you heard, I don't take shit lightly when it comes to the money I make or the environment I live in, and I do feel that our minds are hidden from the plain and clear TRUTH. The government restricts so much valuable information from the normal Jane, Joe, Jim and the guy sitting next to you. If we knew everything and I mean absolutely EVERYTHING that goes on, this world would be complete more chaos than it has already morphed into in the past billion kajillion years.

Anywhoooozer, I completely rambled. A topic of something I would like to know more about is what my professor instructed the class to elaborate our minds and curiosities on. I honestly am not exactly sure of what exactly rocks my socks. I know that lately I have been mesmerized by the vast space we currently orbit in. How life form has come about and what the hell are we doing on this rock in the middle of space. But this question has risen many theories and only leaves mankind boggled and confused just like a innocent 5 year old who struggles to explain where babies come from. I am just as dazed as the next on these such topics and honestly I want a explanation damn it! Maybe the government knows the truth and sits back in their big comfy leather chairs, cigar in mouth (not lit) and laughs at all the small minuscule minds who search far and wide for the "Truth." Just how adults know the truth about where exactly babies come from, but we laugh with adoration to the precious little minds who have not yet become educated of where, how and why babies are produced. I think its all the same

There are sooooo many websites that offer information to cure my great itch of why the hell we live, breathe, walk upright and communicate, BUT the websites that I run into will only give me "theories" of physicists, scientists, evangelists, people who have clever quotes, who BELIEVE how life came about. I doubt I will come across a website that it explains it thoroughly and truthfully what life is and the likes.

Unproductivity: I have been on Tumblr all damn day and looking for new music to infest my ipod aka Mcfly. (which has been yearning for me to feed it some new cool jams) when I could have been opening my mind to topics of research.

My Essay Topic: Mankind - What is life and why are we here?

THERE!!! settled and done. :)

-Jenee B.

I believe!!!

2011-02-23T16:50:00.001-08:00

Black Holes

2011-02-23T16:01:00.001-08:00

I happen to think these things are effing interesting!!

Here's what I learned:

Think of the Earth. When you are in outer space you can float around. If you get too close to the Earth you will be pulled in by its gravity. On the Earth, you could leave again in a rocket ship. However, if you fall into a black hole, there would be no way to get out because the gravity is so powerful.

D O P E!!!!

So lets say I actually fell into one of the motherfunkers, what would happen? where would we end up? do I disintegrate? what is it like inside of a black hole?

2011-02-18T10:47:00.000-08:00

I want to try this!

Day 08

2011-02-17T10:03:00.000-08:00

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

I've never really been satisfied, I don't think I will ever settle to be satisfied until I have completely finished building my foundation to a happier Jenee.

Haven't quite finished that yet

Day 07 of 30 Day Challenge: My Zodiac

2011-02-11T09:46:00.000-08:00

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

The Cancer woman is essentially a very feminine character, often unconsciously seductive in her mannerisms. On occasion, she will consider relinquishing a rather passionate romance in favor of a more stable and conventional relationship. As a sweetheart, she is prone to be rather clinging and likes to "mother" her partner when given the chance. Still, she usually appreciates being told not to fuss overly-much since if she feels she is being taken advantage of, she will accuse her partner of being lazy, selfish and/or degenerate. Nonetheless, this woman does like to be dominated and is happy not to win every argument or come out on top all the time. As a life partner, she should be allowed to go her own way in every small matter and given instruction...or even bossed...on the larger matters. The female ruled by Cancer is capable of providing an attractive and artistic home, but will not necessarily want to stay there all the time. This is a woman who needs an anchor...a partner who can always be counted upon in an emotional sense. In essence, she needs a shoulder to cry on and likes to share her laughter. As a mother, she is neither dominating nor demanding. Indeed, she often neglects to understand the nuances of her children's differing characteristics. In addition, her patience with offspring is not always reliable since there is a tendency here to be temperamental. The Cancer female is usually best with small children...babies and toddlers...but is apt to resent the increasing independence shown by older children. In short, she is likely to be impatient of what she considers to be their strange adolescent ways.

At her best, this female is sympathetic, affectionate and protective...to say nothing of being devoted and adaptable. Her presence is generally sanctifying and she understands how to serve. In return for her devotion, the Cancer woman is undoubtedly loved and respected. Still, she can often be a moody, changeable and ignorant soul...one who is unwilling to be improved. In addition, she can be temperamental to a fault and sensitive in the extreme. She oftentimes seeks protection and will need the help and guidance of a partner to provide the strength with which to meet life's problems. Any partner will almost certainly be placed upon a pedestal in this female's imagination and if that partner should fail, the spiritual shock may well prove to be crushing. This is a passionately possessive woman and everything concerning the life of her family will be all-absorbing. On occasion, the intuitive and instinctive female ruled by Cancer does possess an uncannily accurate business sense and is able to furnish advice in that regard with unexpected wisdom. Still, taken in a general sense, the whole character here is essentially feminine with all that such implies.
Positive Traits: kind, loving, emotional, intuitive, imaginative, shrewd, cautious, protective and sympathetic.

Negative Traits: changeable, moody, over-emotional, touchy, untidy, clinging, unable to "let go," and a tendency to wallow in self-pity.

Likes: hobbies, romance, children, parties, home and country.

Dislikes: failure, opposition, aggravating situations, being told what to do and being given advice...whether good or bad.

THIS IS ME!! every last bit is ironically true. . . who'da thunk?

Day 06 of 30 Day Challenge

2011-02-02T11:14:00.000-08:00

Day 06 - A photo of yourself and write 30 interesting facts about yourself

1. I am 3rd of 4 children. 2 (wise) older sisters, and 1 younger (wise) brother - I sometimes get the best advice from my younger brother.
2. I love the smell of Gasoline
3. A lot of people like to judge me as a High maintenance, but if you really know me, you'll know that I'm really a tomboy.
4. I love watching cartoon animated movies
5. I have an obsession with astronomy/UFO's/Conspiracy theories
6. I would be covered in tatts if I had the money/or knew someone who did them super legit
7. I LOVE to bake
8. My all time favorite movie is Titanic
9. Wears heart on sleeve
10. I only like to watch scary movies when going to the movie theaters.

11. Found out my actual Bday was on June 26th when I was 10, but kept celebrating on the 27th since I had already went that long. lol
12. I can be very judgmental
13. Hate a male's upper thighs (I find them so un-attractive for some reason)
14. I wished I lived/grew up in the 70's era
15. I wear glasses, I wear them once in a great while(should wear them everyday)
16. drive a VW beetle
17. I was passionate about becoming a teacher when I was 6 or 7 (not anymore)
18. I like popping my toes and ankles
19. I wash my hair every other day
20. Someone told me my laugh sounds like a fat girls laugh, and I love it!

21. Fascinated by trees
22. Favorite candy bar is a What-cha-ma-call-it
23. I am very very very indecisive
24. Never been out of California (so sad, I know)
25. If I could Buy an Elephant for a pet, I sooo would, and name him Jack
26. I was engaged, backed out of it slowly
27. biggest pet peeve: repeating myself
28. I adore people who can make me laugh
29. English is my second language, Sarcasm was my first ;)
30. I want 4 children

Adorable

2011-02-02T11:10:00.000-08:00

so cute

Day 05 of 30 Day Challenge

2011-02-01T09:16:00.000-08:00

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life

I really dont like to think about this moment, but as stupid as this may sound I had become suicidal over a guy that I truly loved with all that I knew when I was about 17.

I had seriously contemplated how I would kill my self.

having to see the one guy I truly loved and gave my all to with someone else would definitely conjure up these thoughts. All I wanted was for him to feel the pain that I felt and to regret what he had done. Thankfully, I came to realization that this act would not do anything but cause my family great heartache and the last thing I would ever want to do was cause them any type of sorrow.

I realized that I had much more life to live and another shot at love. The world contains of so much life and its up to me to go and grab it. At that time I didn't even think of all the great happenings ahead of me. I am 23 going on 24 in June and I can definitely say I've had some crazy moments thus far and definitely ones to remember.

Life is nothing to take for granted. Use it wisely, yeah you may slip up here and there but thats what its all about and learning from such beautiful moments.

Needless to say, I recently ran into this guy who was the cause of my suicidal thoughts. We discussed about our old moments and the why's and how's, and made closure once and for all. He also told me he felt like shit ever since that happened. He knew he lost a spectacular love who loved him even at his worst, and would beat himself up all the time for fucking with a dumb bitch; over his ride or die.

Kanye Shrug?

payback comes in mysterious ways.

The Jealous Guys

2011-01-31T13:48:00.000-08:00

AND. . .

Making a real slice into the blogger buzz The Jealous Guys have been living out their stage name. I know a lot of those who sit on the lyrical sidelines morphed to a "Green Eye monsta," while these two kats have had major breakthroughs like XXL, SF Weekly to The Fader magazine; just to name a few, and word is definitely getting around about the amount of talent of how the two poetically ejaculate with an audience who actually appreciate their lyrical game.Regardless of how known they are, or how known they will become to be, These young fellows definitely possess the greater necessities to spoil their audience with a silver spoon; Serving us a sweet taste, yet a hint of kill to keep us wanting more.

If it aint iLL, then it aint on the Eye.

THE LOVE MIXTAPE DROPS FEBRUARY 14TH . . keep ears open!

-Jenee B.

Day 04 of 30 Day Challenge

2011-01-31T11:36:00.001-08:00

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

This subject has been playing a mean game of teeter-totter in my life lately. I believe in god. Period.

alhough as everyone does, I have doubt.

religion is a way of living not actually believing. All I care about is my relationship I have the great one and want to make sure that the god I believe in knows my heart and my well being on this earth. I am not perfect, as no one is, and I no where near try to be but I do try to keep my life balanced and properly ordained. Like everyone on this earth; I am a sinner, but to better myself each day whether it be simply making someone smile or living a real christian life; either way in my heart I'm living a life of love and struggling to be the best I can for my mind, body, spirit and soul. that may sound super cliche but I honestly dont care because its truly how I feel.

Everyone has their own beliefs, but it all equals out to living in love and meaning well on this earth. To make a connection with human beings in any way possible be it negative or positive. We are all here for some reason.

-Jenee B.

Day 03 of 30 Day Challenge

2011-01-31T11:01:00.000-08:00

(Late)Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol

I often sometimes sit back and think, who the hell thought of such a wonderful way to get out of reality.LOL j/k But being that this addiction/alcoholism runs in my blood, I try to steer myself away from becoming a regular at the nearest liquor store. I'm not going to say I never tried and experimented, but never did I try anything that one can make with their under the sink cleaning products. FUCK THAT!

Honestly, I think its a matter of choice whether we fall into the drugs or not. Becoming addicted to shit that literally fucks your entire life up roots all from the day you made the choice, and we all have the same power to make the choice for ourselves and it to not to grow into an addiction. So people who say I "suffered" from alcholism, cocaine addiction, or all the other shit that turns people crazy, I truly do not feel sorry for them. Drugs and Alcohol are simply dark choices that we as humans seem to fall in here and again. Occasionally tipping the glass is how like to keep it, but I choose and continue to keep it occasional.

My parents never really tried to keep me from drugs and alcohol since they knew that it was going to hit me upside the head one of these days, but they did say its up to you to keep it under control. And honestly, I love my parents that much more for giving me the freedom to see what the fuck was up because they were sooo confident that they raised their 4 children better than that. They knew deep down that none of their children would become coke heads or meth addicts. We all are on our own and doing well off for ourselves and our future. Drugs and alcohol will always exist but its truly up to us whether we allow that portal of bad shit into our lives.

-Jenee B.

Day 02 of 30 Day Challenge

2011-01-27T09:31:00.000-08:00

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

Honestly, I think that's a bit too far to think ahead. I am more a person that lives a day to day lifestyle, but do not get confused that I have strict goals and I do plan to execute them. I really don't want to say the cliche bullshit that everyone says, " I want to have a family, marriage, well paying job and a house with a white picket fucking fence!" Yeah, yeah, yeah so does everyone and their brother, sister and great grandma.

In 10 years I want to have matured into well balanced grown woman. I know have some growing up to do still, so I want to have experienced all my stupid decisions and spontaneous crazy in the middle night adventures by the time I reach 33/34 years old; which I still feel like I haven't yet accomplished. I want to go into my 30's dusting my hands off just how a teacher dusts their hands together from all the chalk collected on their hands after writing up the long ass homework assignment on a old school chalkboard and as he confidently takes a long look at his cacographic paragraph homework prompt, yet legible (according to him) chicken scratch on the chalkboard; I want to do the same. After living my twenties, I want to take a long stare back into my stupidities and long nights out with the girls, I want to dust my hands off like the professor and say,(with the stillness in my heart) "yes, I am ready for the "family, marriage, well paying job and the house with the white picket fence." bullshit dream! lol

I simply want to be comfortable and satisfied in my own skin and genuinely be happy with my life and future endeavors. I always hear my oldest sister telling me her crazy stories of when she was my age and how much fucking fun she had. I envy her at times because my stories don't even come close to hers; well, almost.

Please lets not get this confused; I definitely want financial stability "success" in 10 years, but I really truly think "success" is simply being happy, confident and comfortable with myself and whoever it is that is in my life whether it may be my future husband and future children, or simply a boyfriend. Happiness is my definition of success and in 10 years that's exactly where I want to be caught standing in the middle of with a smile of completion ready for the next door of opportunity to open to walk through it without looking back. :) . . satifaction

-Jenee B.

Day 01 of 30 Day Challenge

2011-01-26T10:28:00.000-08:00

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

[mouth sideways] I'm single. But caught in such a sticky situation I really don't even know how to put it into English words. Not that I can't speak English or anything, but how complicated the situation is boggles my own mind and my fingers seem incapable of expressing the deep layer which blankets my heart. I always put myself in these type of stupid situations but honestly I'd rather have taken the riskier path then the plain boring straight road. I like how life is supposedly 90% of what comes at you and only friggin 10% of what you make it. Do you believe that shit? crazy right?

So for now I declare single until I officially iron out what the hell it is that I have going on monogamously with my heart and person(s).

Single life: The very beauty's of living single is that you have opportunity recreate yourself as "one" You get to do the very things that made you feel scrumptiously well. Whether it be staying home on a saturday night by yourself cuddled under a blanket watching your fave T.V shows, or out with the girls until you find yourself at an after-party scarfing Nachos and camping out on their couch because the copious amounts of alcoholic bevs consumed earlier in the night. Either way; you feel a bit of freedom that you only feel being single because once you are in a relationship, it feels a bit diff going out with the girls, but it most def feels diff when you stay at home on a Saturday night with your significant other. Single life definitely gets a bit cold, but I learned to fire up each moment that was cold and lonely. I always thought of what it was that truly made me sincerely happy and just go and do it. Single life gets a bit rough, but it was those very moments that defines me:JENEE as my true self how I perform to get through that bumpy road.

Always love your self and keep your balance, mentally, physically, spiritually

2011-01-26T10:12:00.000-08:00

Starting today, here's whats on the game plan take a look see.

30 Day Challenge

Walking The Line Between Life And Death: 30 Day Challenge

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

Day 06 - A photo of yourself and write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

Day 10 – Someone who came into your life unexpected and made an impact.

Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.

Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

Day 14 – A photo of a cherished memory.

Day 15 - 5 people in your life right now who mean the most.

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.

Day 18 – Something that makes you laugh.

Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.

Day 20 - How important you think education is.

Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.

Day 22 – Something you want to do before you die.

Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.

Day 24 – Somewhere you would like to travel.

Day 25 – A photo you took.

Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.

Day 27 - A problem that you have had.

Day 28 - Something that you miss.

Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.

Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.

all inspired by: Fellow Tumblr-ette lol (i love that term)

2011-01-25T14:41:00.000-08:00

kid is a beast . . . sheesh!

My next to attack in the upcoming interviews: SchoolBoyQ, JayRock, and AbSoul. All of them are on some other shit. Talented and with a terrorizing lyrical game; this crew is movin its way into Switching the light back over to West Coast.

really Lovin K.dot's: Vanity Slave 2 (feat. Gucci)= out of this world

2011-01-20T09:04:00.000-08:00

D O P E!!

NEW INTERVIEW- (JENESIS Magazine)

2011-01-19T16:53:00.000-08:00

My latest contribution to the dopest group of intellects who are really on the grind:JENESIS Magazine

I really had a lot of fun interviewing @JasmineSolano. She was a real genuine chick who really knew about what herself and what it is she liked. I really admire people who have this deep insight about themselves, and I can definitely say she is one of them. I support her all the way.

Also, I had the awesome opportunity to interview the super talented @Kendrick_lamar. This cat has one awesome way of thinking musically and intellectually. I'm truly honored to have had the opportunity to dig a little deeper into his brain. I have been a fan of his work for quite some time and will continue. So may I present to you the latest issue of JENESIS Magazine (click the link above) Hope you all enjoy.

P.S
Follow Mr. Thomas Agnew @Thomas_JENESIS for piecing everything together. I super admire is ambition and will to make this JENESIS movement come alive.

2010-12-16T09:13:00.000-08:00

Who remembers this?

This was my ultimate shit back in high school, and just recently couldn't get this song out of my head. Thought I would share lol

I Wanna Pull My Hair OUT!!!

2010-12-08T15:14:00.001-08:00

Its definitely been a long while since my last post

I am currently going through the most toughest time with many paths that lay before me. My love life is completely fucked up, my finances are all over the place and my second job is hanging on by the very last thread. I've been calling in for the past couple times I have been scheduled. WTF JENEE! It always seems like around this time of year is when everything is going smoothly, everything crumbles and my life turns around and flips me off. I have been soooooooooooooo confused. I want to go and lay down and cry myself to sleep then wake up in the morning and cry some more. Then after my long sob session I want to emotionally bake cookies and thoroughly clean my house. Organize everything from my kitchen cabinets down to my closet, and all this shit thats building up under my bed has got to go. I dont know what it is that makes me feel happy when all my shit is organized. I feel that my life seems immensely less vexed, but I know that's not just me; some of you muthafuckas do the same shit. LOL

I haven't had a girls night out in a Lonnnnnnnng while, so maybe that might cure it. We all know how girls act when they are under a lot of stress with alcohol having your level of consciousness in a choke hold for the night. Crazy Shit! So maybe that's not exactly the logical route to take, but let me tell you, it most definitely helps to take a load off.

All I want to do is lay down in my freshly washed sheets/blankets and watch the rain hail down onto mother earth while laying on my love's chest as he strokes my head; with some ol' school playing in the distance. My eyes grow heavier and heavier and my heart feels warmer just thinking about how bad I want to be next to him. Gosh How I miss smell, smile, and most of all his tenderness.

I hope to see clearly after the rain is gone. I leave my heart with him and pray he comes back to me. I love you :(

(the picture above is my confused dazed face) lol

2010-11-09T10:49:00.001-08:00

Angelicly dreaming

Gosh I love my nephew ;)

-J€N€€

The Jealous Guys - First Sight

2010-11-04T16:00:00.000-07:00

So a while Back, I agreed to make a quick Cameo in my all time favorite Duo; The Jealous Guys latest Video Now these kats definitely contain talent that doesn't really resonate on "the streets" today, or "in the studio/radio." Every time I listen to some of their shit, I become so inspired in my own projects that have lately blanketed my bedroom floor with ideas, intros, questions that I wrote all on crumbled paper and then I would stuff in my purse. I would then try to re-asses before I went to bed; which is why all my ideas lay on my bedroom floor now. Anywho, I completely got off subject, But The Jealous Guys are definitely worth lending your virgin ears to. Reason why I say Virgin ears is for the simple fact that once you've listened to this Diligent Duo, your ears, mind, and spirit will have been completely fucked with; no condom. Straight RAW! LOL okay okay, that may been a tad graphic, but hey, it's only the truth. These guys leave you with a Euphoric mind fuck sensation that leave you like, "did that just happen?" (weirdos might need a Cigarette after this to intensify that feeling) LOL .... AND again, if it aint iLL, then it aint on here - The iLL Eye. Im just sayin

-JYB

did you see me Dis @Ayinde89 at the end? haha . .Classic! Sorry Yinders! j/k

@Casa = the other half of The Jealous Guys (super-dee-duper Talented by the way)

ME

2010-10-26T11:18:00.000-07:00

WITNESS MY BRAIN WRINKLING

HERE

its my tumblr, just visually expressing myself . . . that's all

:)

One Man Bands

2010-10-25T16:35:00.000-07:00

DWELE!! One man band!

ALL Les!! One Man band

NEW INTERVIEW- (JENESIS Magazine)

2010-10-19T10:30:00.000-07:00

To all who actually read this blog:

I want everyone to actually take a look at my latest project with OUTASIGHT. Featured in the latest Issue of JENESIS Magazine. I had a lot of fun interviewing this kat. He was really low key and had some real good answers to my questions.

Take a look here at JENESIS Magazine

-JYB

1 Day Closer

2010-10-08T15:27:00.000-07:00

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

-E.E Cummings

(this is how im feeling about him right now, Gosh I miss you)

And Yes, he Got my name on his wrist!

2010-10-01T15:43:00.000-07:00

IM SO FUCKING SLEEPY!

besides that, Im goin to watch Catfish tonight and I am quite excited! Hopefully its one of those flicks that has you on the edge of your seat type shit. I have been quite the movie goer lately and yet to be astounded by a thriller flick. I love scary movies in the month of October I hope this one rocks my socks.

2010-09-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

I've managed to make path through my writing, and hopefully one day yellow brick road to the land of OZ. Riding the 24karatmilkcrate along the way assists my path onto the brick road and with that being said I would like to introduce my first Interview with A chill spirit with beasty lyrics; the oh so Dope Freddie Gibbs.

Check the Interview Here

B O R E D!

2010-09-16T17:53:00.001-07:00

My hair-do sorta reminds me of the 90's poof!

Diggin my W.W.J.D. Bracelet?

I'm bringing em' back! Lol

The Light that Links Two Hearts

2010-09-16T16:26:00.001-07:00

The glow in his eyes brings back a distant memory that refreshes the still warmth in her heart.

She took a long look into her notepad, but not even words could explain the amourous sensation she experiences when recollecting the sensual moments with the love of her life. Looking out the window; she looks up into the crisp black starry sky and imagines his heart connecting with hers through the light they share by the moon.

His release date: February 2014

2010-09-15T14:20:00.000-07:00

when it comes to having a sense of humor meshed with style, I happen to think I am El Capitan of both boats, and with this piece, it totally screams Humorously fashionable. To cop one of these for only $40' it would be stupid of me not to get one. I haven't done a must have post in a while, but today I am going to try to post a little bit of everything today that has been lackness here on The iLL. I'm surprised the N*E*R*D crew has not been spotted with one of these on.

Cop one Here

2010-09-15T09:56:00.001-07:00

They make me want to cut my hair! I love these bitches, always stayed true to themselves. I like how the media didn't try to change their style; they are who they are! I need download this Alchemist track by the way. I forgot how dope it was ;) -iLL

-JyB

Tuesdays Should never Feel Like Mondays

2010-09-07T11:58:00.000-07:00

John Legend & The Roots - Shine by Hypetrak

A beautiful track graces my ears on this tuesday back at work. Reality set in at 9am this morn, but Legend and The Roots of a mixture always win over my happiness. So refreshing

-JyB

thoughts of my Existence

2010-09-02T10:45:00.000-07:00

Humans are a curious species. We want to know more and more. we don't give up and we strive to have a better car than him/her. The curiosity doesn't reward us with peace of mind; instead, it sabotages our minds into feeling that money, cars, clothes, jewls and all the shit make us happy. Ask yourself, are you truly content with the skeletal cage which incarcerates your soul?

Are we as the human species supposed to come to an understanding with the our bodies and minds; to make them co-exist with each heartbeat and blood vessel alike? I reach out in the empty sky looking for an answer, but my spirit always tells me, "I love you" His spirit lives throughout each limb and vein. I walk, talk, smile, cry and Laugh in the spirit that was given to me. The very soul that reminisces on memories of the darkest hours that strengthened my backbone which holds up the very outline of a body who seeks True love, peace and exhilaration. Happiness perceived through the eye of a young mind only sees Jewls, cars, clothes and the root of all evil.

Does money aid to "happiness"? NO! All I want is his hand on my back reminding me to keep going and that I am strong; it'll be okay.

-JyB

Joys of being Latino

2010-09-01T16:50:00.001-07:00

Tostadas and spanish rice, thanks mama. This meal definitely made up for a the bad day I was having, and to those who actually read my silly rantings. . . Sorry for the lack of posting! Been a bit busy lately waiting for this success train to hurry and make its stop to pick me up! Lol

-JyB

2010-08-16T12:04:00.000-07:00

Although I have made this post on my Tumblr, I would like to elaborate more on this specific piece. All of these responses I have used via text messaging and they are all shockingly true to an extent. I connected with the "Hey you" in my most recent text exchanges. At the moment I stand alone in this cold war world and have not come across a potentially Mr. that fits my specifications. I have met a lot of almosts, but not quite the flavor that rocks my boat if ya know what I mean. Then again I'm not really looking for of an actual boyfriend or someone to share my overly affectionate moments with. A friend who simply makes me laugh and I do in return, or someone who I love to be around and I also love the person I am when I am in their presence; that's who'd I hope to find.

Over this past weekend, I have learned what "love/like" really meant to him. As I dissected and digested this true meaning from another soul searching for true happiness, I had come to realize that every heart yearns for that one true partner. regardless of how hood you are or one could hold a sophisticated conversation, the search continues in everyone.

So this past weekend this is what happened: I have this crush on this certain someone but we only spill out our guts and true feelings when ever either one of us reaches the point of inebriation. I invite him over after we have had a few drinks and we go into deep conversations of why our hearts beat the way they do when we are around one another, but my question is, Is the truth finally coming out now that he is under the influence or is he telling me what I want to hear to get in a the pants? it really sucks not sure where to take it from here. Touching and kissing takes place but nothing more. we wake up next to each other in the morning and then hugs goodbye.

WTF!

Can one make a translator for this reoccuring stupid situation please!!!! lol

-JYB

2010-08-11T15:20:00.000-07:00

I had a smile throughout this entire vid simply to see these two faces again on some new shit. I have to admit, Mannie fresh had some iLL beats (and dope whip)and Mystikal, well . . . Mystikal; it seems as though he couldn't take it anymore and he had went into lyrical convulsion. Either way, it had me smiling all the way through. Its good to see these artists popping up in the blogosphere now a days.

Yo Mannie! Lay off them cheese eggs eh? j/k

-JYB

Window Seat Remix

2010-08-09T11:04:00.000-07:00

Badu + Ross = Dope video

I especially love badu's sky high stiletto boots with her bad ass patent leather pantelones. Get money

P.S
Cant wait to see the next vid ;)

My B!RTHDAY Gang!

2010-08-03T11:15:00.001-07:00

So I found thid pic that was taken the night of my bday, June 27, 2010. You could barely see our faces. I have some different pics that I will post. I had fun this night but didn't really rememeber most of the night. I had much more fun the day after which was my pool party. Too bad I didn't take any pics of that day :(

Cold in the Summer

2010-08-02T15:09:00.001-07:00

For the last few days, I have been sick with the cold. Who the hell catches the friggin cold in the summertime? Birds are chirping, the sun beams endlessly into window panes and I am stuck on the couch at home under the blanket while my skin grows goosebumps from a running fever. Fuggin Balogna mayne! Anywhoozer, I figured I would come and exploit my running nose-ness here and express my frustrations with tissues balls surrounding my apartment floor while everyone is out hitting beach balls and sipping margaritas by the pool.But whateves, summer aint over yet, not until I officially have a sunburn and pruney fingers and toes from swimming all day long. Until then, its Kleenex boxes and Vicks Vapor rub for me. Hope every one of you MF’s is having a great summer ;)

-Jenee B.

Ski Beatz - Cream of The Planet (ft. Mos Def)

2010-07-23T10:12:00.000-07:00

Gosh, he makes my eyes smile!

David Banner - "Death Of A Pop Star"

2010-07-12T14:32:00.000-07:00

I can really respect an artist like David Banner. This video has shown that coming from this pop infested industry, Banner speaks the truth of what stir's in this pot of wack shit that we so call radio hits. Listen to every word, David Banner will really paints us a picture from the inside of the industry.

-JYB

Dwele Ft. Slum Village - How I Deal

2010-06-25T09:52:00.001-07:00

Dwele featuring Slum Village - How I Deal by Hypetrak

July 9th couldn't come any friggin slower!! Thats when I get to see Dwele perform live at Yoshi's in Oakland. soooooo Stoked! He released this song on one of his youtube videos sometime earlier this year . . . or I think it could have been last year, anyway doesn't matter. All that matters is that he's awesome and I get to see him front and center very soon! I will post pics of this night that has yet to come. OMG can't wait.

Gosh I love him ;)

-Jenee B.

Saturday Night Prophetic Vision

2010-06-22T14:33:00.000-07:00

With the lack of topic to discuss, I want to take this opportunity and express my inner juices that flow within me. My birthday slowly approaches with not a clue as to what my attire will consist of on this "special" day. I am single this time around and No, I will not have a special someone that will be purchasing my drinks all night, in fact, I take that back; I have more than one special person I have four or five. These individuals I would like to call my girlies. It is these women whom not only I rely on but can hand over my entire being to. It seems as though we tend to tuck these people of our lives away whenever a intimate relationship roots up in our lives. I can say I am definitely guilty of letting this occur in my life one time or another.

My main concern for that evening will completely fall on if everyone is having a good time and if I catch the young fellow's attention with waves sittin at the bar drinking his overpriced gin and tonic. Just kidding. I want my night not to have any concern of men coming within my path or even pulling me away from my girls to sneak a dance or groove with me. I simply want to have a splendid time without being pulled away from my crowd and who's wearing the cutest shoes of the night debate. lol.

I definitely want to have some recollection in the morning of the night prior. I want to remember: the umpteenth amount of bites I will be giving everyone, (I tend to do this when I'm tipsy),the wink from across the bar, the great outfits everyone was wearing, the "oh my gosh, this is my sooonnnggg" moments, the ever so clever,classy and infamous "drunk dance." lol all of these, I would love to keep great memories of so that being said; limiting my consumption of alcohol will have to be a must on the nights itinerary. Even though my body clock will be turning 23 years old, keeping my composure is a definite must. No matter what, I'm going to induce the fact that having fun is only an understatement of all the fantastic moments that will be taking place that night.

Since we will be in the Oakland area for the evening, we plan to hit Chicken and Waffles in Jack London Square. Yum! My late night indulgence.

Regardless, a drink will be in hand, dancing the night away into the my new age of 23 years old. Happy Birthday to me: June 27, 1987.

-Jenee

The Rose that Grew From Concrete

2010-06-16T12:35:00.000-07:00

Did you hear about the rose that grew
from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it
learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams,
it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete
when no one else ever cared.

-Tupac Shakur

My favorite:
Idol
man
poet
artist
activist
idealist
man to ever live

Happy Birthday.

June 16, 1971 - September 13, 1996

The Jealous Guys - Ballad

2010-06-09T11:54:00.000-07:00

"Ballad" by The Jealous Guys from Ayinde bell-stampp on Vimeo.

Only these guys can take a smooth beat and renovate it with their dope lyrics, but it's not only their lyrics, it's their style of eloquence they apply. The Jealous Guys contain overflowing potential that a lot of these other so called "iLL lyricists" could soak some up from them. Not even a sponge could consume all the lyrical capacity this duo showers us with. Take a look for yourself, Ayinde and Casa keep it simple in Ballad, yet their intricate verses combined with a smooth beat make you fall in love. I did!

I especially loved the guitar usage in this track.

-JYB

By Night: a Heartbreaker

2010-06-04T11:07:00.001-07:00

School has grown to bug the fuck out of me. It seems as if I try hard as hell to pass these classes and at the end of it all they fail me; I don't fail them. School has came to a conclusion (for this semester at least) and this summer all I want to do is soak my sorrows in the sun with a martini in left hand while lathering sunblock with my right, and a possible skinny dip contingency ;) Whoa! I just looked at my fingernails and I am in desperate need of a manicure. All the minor up-keeps I have been putting off for school, well damn it, This summer it is all about meeee!

Summer happenings consist of waking up late, partying all night, late night swims, purchase an umpteenth amount of bathing suits, sandals, buckets full of sunblock, beach wave hair, all of these things I want to indulge in and not feel guilty of doing so. Although with a second job, it can be quite difficult to dive into a summer of naughtiness. This summer I want to be bad; I want to do things I have never done before. I want to try food that I've never even thought about putting in my mouth maybe travel to far far away land even if its laying in the park on a blanket and daydreaming. Summer revolves around the sun and I want to be just like summer: Hot and heavy!

I wanna be baaaad! I want a summer love in the day, Break hearts by Night. . ha!

One of my MANY Summer anthems: My hair blowin in the wind in the bug with this one
Drake featuring Jay-Z - Light Up (CDQ) by Hypetrak

Raybans and lip stick at night:
The Roots featuring John Legend - Doin It Again by Hypetrak

-JYB

Dwele - Whats Not To Love

2010-06-02T13:00:00.000-07:00

Album drops: June 29, 2010
I got to see him perform: July 7, 2010

I am excited for both of these dates but much more for the performance at Yoshi's. I have been waiting and waiting for him to slide through the bay area once again to finally make it out to one of his shows. And I just got news that we will have front row seats at Yoshi's in Oakland! Can't get any better than that! Oh Dwele . . you are so dreamy *sigh*

2010-06-01T11:18:00.000-07:00

Junk Science "Really, Man" Music Video from John Ta on Vimeo.

Junk Science
"Really Man"

the vibe of this song was iLL so I had to post *shrug*

what do you think?

-JYB

My Favorite 80's Cut

2010-05-27T11:01:00.000-07:00

So I'm going to an 80's party this weekend and I'm bustin out the leg warmers and some of that Rick James, but best of all this song! This dynamic duo makes me want to become a 60's baby to have the privilege of appreciating music that was released circa 1980. I am an 80's baby, but I definitely welcome the ol' school shit to my vast horizon of music. Cuts like these were my mom and dad's party days and they tend to bring it back at family functions or a family BBQ's, so this weekend I just wanna celebrate the funkiness by cuttin a rug to this song and many more iLL hits of this time.

Have a good memorial weekend everyone!

-JYB

Wiz Khalifa - The Statement

2010-05-19T11:17:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite Tracks off the Kush & Orange Juice mixtape. Fuck the Vid, this song rocks harder than a lot of that watered down bullshit on the radio.

The vid is simple yet outspoken

-Jenee

THAT'S ME!! Lol

2010-05-19T02:05:00.001-07:00

Scrapertown

2010-05-18T10:26:00.000-07:00

Everything about this vid tells a story from the long pause on each of the kids' face to the designs on each of their bikes "California Is a Place" really knows how to shoot one hell of a video and make you feel every emotion that was intended to feel in each frame. I have much respect for this young lass for rising above the crime and creating a place for these kids who want to become a part of something. He has constructed a positive goal for the struggling kids of East Oakland to look forward to and strive for something positive. Politics in the streets of Oakland tend to stray these children to stealing cars and selling dope, but it truly iLLuminates my eyes and heart to see Scraper King doing this for himself but for the community.

Pure Imagination Cover

2010-05-14T11:41:00.001-07:00

I am absolutely in love with this song and I have always had this crush on it ever since I laid my eyes on the film Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. This cover is absolutely magical and well played. I watched some others, but they weren't quite on point as this kat with the guitar. he really rips it and can play a mean Gheee-tarr! lol

-Jenee Yvette

2010-05-14T10:10:00.001-07:00

D O P E!

Janelle Monae - Neon Valley Street

2010-05-13T12:31:00.000-07:00

Janelle Monae - Neon Valley StreetbyHypetrak

Such a smooth tune, I have been a fan of this chick since the jump and she really knows how to give her listeners and supporters exactly what we want. Neon Valley Street is simply an appetizer to what comes on May 18th. More please!
Source: HYPETRAK

2010-05-13T11:34:00.000-07:00

I always really admired this song and the story line was cleverly put together, Oh 3 stacks. . you rock my socks!

Lady GaGa - Future Love

2010-05-07T16:47:00.000-07:00

This track is super hot without all the super pop additives she always adds. It's just her and the Piano which is what I really love about it. Sometimes the simplest things create a entity of Awesomeness! Good Job on this one GaGa! Word was said she was performing this on tour and its finally laid down in the studio, so here it is! I really didn't like GaGa but this song completely changed my view (now that I can actually hear her regular voice instead of all that crazy techno shit in the background) naawwww meeeann??? LOL enjoy ;)

Lady GaGa - Future LovebyHypetrak

A.Mo -Live It Up "Live Positive Over Negative": ALBUM REVIEW

2010-05-06T15:53:00.000-07:00

A whiz of a careful craft constructs a masterpiece that seeps into the open cracks, and fill our ears with a well assembled album. A. Mo (Allen Moore) cleverly uses his First initial and two letters of his last name and conceives A.Mo as his popular stage name. He roots from Oakland, Ca where young talent spreads across this metropolitan area, yet A.mo slithers his way through this competitive industry and ascends with his distinctive voice and diverse style.

A.Mo’s dynamic technique gives this album the electro-funk hip hop feel that a record titled “Live it Up” ideally needs. When one thinks of “Live it Up,” imagine effortless “bob head” music with material and delivery that is on it’s A game. This album consists an influential pace of bone moving tracks and a vibe that leaves you craving for more of A.Mo’s dexterous voice and delivery. Not many artists today have the aptitude to bring their fans wanting more, but A.Mo digs deep in the rich soil of opportunity and grows a giving tree that offers his audience a well mastered style of music.

Specific tracks like So High has a unique whistle that automatically snatches your attention with a super knocking bass line. We out Here and Boo serves the audience more beat knocking beats and a “Live it Up” view of a young artist like A.mo. Not only does A.mo create rockin joints that create lively funkyness, but he also can tone down the mood with tracks like Murderers Back and Hey Love. A.Mo carefully thought out the blueprint of each style to capture in every track and established a formula of Fresh. I could already see Pipe Da Joints track infecting our clubs with a popular dance to go with it. BOO and So High had me at Hello.

“Live It Up” brings to the table what a lot of current artists fail to achieve. A.Mo’s voice never once bores you with a monotone approach; which a lot of these underground artists are still on. The elevation of his voice and slight pauses allowed me to actually understand and relate to his material. Monotone flowing does not exist on this “Live It Up” album. A.Mo’s captivating flow methods clearly create how “living it up” really does exist, but the choice is all up to you to leave the bullshit behind. The choice lays in the hands of creator.

To educate yourself more on A.Mo, check him out here:

DattPiff:A.Mo - LIVE IT UP
Twitter:@ItsAmoBabeee
Myspace: NHT A.MO
MP3: A.Mo - Sex Rehab

2010-05-05T22:22:00.000-07:00

I love the big name celebs in this pic! . . . come one now . . OPRAH? and Pharrell?

Get the F**k atta heeah!!!

My Shit!

2010-05-05T12:06:00.000-07:00

Fuggin Love this song!

2010-05-05T10:47:00.001-07:00

"Why Don't You Love Me" - Beyoncé from Beyoncé on Vimeo.

I feel like this in sooooo many ways! This video slapped me across the face with a WOW! I can definitely relate. Besides that, I really love the makeup and costume used in this vid as well as the teary eyed make up and the cigarette smoke coming out of B's nose! That was an automatic "WTF?" moment! didn't know she could do it like that! LOL . . .LOVE IT!

2010-05-03T15:15:00.000-07:00

My Girl Alana was cuttin a rug Saturday night! thats her in the LBD (little black dress) Tis' I over to the right gettin it in with her! My girl Jessica (my right hand man)lol was the one who snapped the shot. the angle of this pic and the emotion and laughter included really shows how much fun we were all having. I wish I could start this night all over again! And thanks J.smilez for the photography all night, well done my luv!

My life, as it turns

2010-05-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

A big transition in my life has just occurred.

I brake up with my ex-fiance, which was five months ago, and since the time being we had been talking to each other hoping things would work out. Incidentally, I happen to bump into my first love on Facebook recently and things become complicated. We reveal our tucked away feelings towards each other and try to rekindle our once was "True love" again. I then date him for a month and let me tell you, I was torturing myself through anguish and heartache for that entire month. Why would anyone do such a thing? I really thought things would work out even though he has a 4 year old daughter now. Wow! I gave my heart to he and his daughter thinking I could fit into their missing puzzle piece in each of their lives. That was a big mistake, yet the love I had for him I still can't find a place in my heart of regret from the attempt to make things work amongst us.

My ex-Fiance then finds out I was talking to my first love again and goes bizzurk (or however you spell it) He tries everything he can to get back at me and hurt me, but there is absolutely nothing he can do now that could hurt me as much as he has in the past. Now that I look back on it, Why in the hell didn't I officially leave his ass a long fucking time ago???!!! Love has become a distant goal that I am putting on the high top shelf for now. I will not give my heart out anymore only if I absolutely know for sure that I can for sure give my true 100% and as reciprocated. In the one month's period I spent with my first love I had given him a part of me that I never really gave anyone else, yet I held back a lot from him that I was able to give to my current ex.

My experience of this 5 month journey which I have been on all by myself has made me realize that I'm only 22 years old (going on 23 next month) and that I will never be this age again. So I might as well live it up while I can and do the best in the midst of it all with myself. My heart aches for happiness but I know than only time will heal this wound. I need time to breathe and grasp the greater things in life that I'm currently distant from at the moment. I want to mainly concentrate on myself and the ones left in my life who I love dearly. I look back at the shit that I've been through in my past and that is exactly where I want to leave it. One can not progress into the future if they continue to hold on to the past firmly. "Let go Jenee and move on" is what I keep replaying in my head but those are simply just words for now, and I need to learn to make them actions. How do I get over this situation? How will I recover? I am such a sucka for love who wears her heart on her sleeve. It is my time to step into the light into the doorway of opportunity and release my inhibitions into the world I have yet to play with. The world is my Squishy . . . Vibrate

2010-04-29T12:49:00.001-07:00

An early AM text came through my phone this morning. I opened it and this picture displayed before me; my sister had landed her own parking spot at the jizzob! I happen to think this is pretty awesome. Do you remember watching movies with the teacher or principle having their very own parking spot? it shows longevity and power to have your very own parking space. I bet cha Suzy in accounting doesn't have one, but my sister does!! ;) Hooray for Irene :)

Lupe Fiasco - I'm Beamin

2010-04-29T11:33:00.000-07:00

A Neptune beat coalesced with Lupe Fiasco iLL skill creates a joint that is potential for the repeat button all day. I love everything about this song and best believe this will be a must have the day the album Lasers officially drops! First in line . . . .me!

2010-04-29T10:47:00.000-07:00

Ha!

-Jenee Y.B.

The Game Ft. JT and Pharrell - Aint No Doubt About it

2010-04-28T17:15:00.000-07:00

The Game featuring Justin Timberlake & Pharrell – Ain’t No Doubt About It by Hypetrak

The Windows are down, I'm driving in my Beetle in a tank top and my Raybans and hair blowing in the wind. This track is oh so hot! a Definite must have

Tyga Ft. Chris Brown - G Shit

2010-04-27T10:41:00.000-07:00

Video Provided by DatPiff.com

Okay, so what is with breezy throwin in some bars now? He seems like a natural! These two kats are killin it . .. in a good way duhh!!

2010-04-27T09:56:00.001-07:00

2010-04-26T16:50:00.000-07:00

This Shit is hella iLL, although it's only a snippet so I am really stoked for the full release of this track. HeLL, I am stoked for Lu's album to drop!
Lupe Fiasco featuring Pharrell – Horn SynthbyHypetrak

2010-04-23T17:01:00.000-07:00

iLL

2010-04-23T14:27:00.000-07:00

Stoked!

J.Stalin - Stop My Shine (feat. Glasses Malone & 211)

2010-04-23T10:09:00.000-07:00

J. Stalin - one of the hardest artists here in the bay area! He absolutely kills it on this one, but then again when does he not?

2010-04-22T11:02:00.000-07:00

(Kanye Shrug) :)

~Jenee Yvette

I can Digg it!!!! Chris Brown Ft. Tyga - Holla @ Me

2010-04-22T10:29:00.000-07:00

Chris slowly making his way back and I actually think this track is kinda dope! This is from Chris Brown's upcoming mixtape Fan of a Fan. Tyga gives this track a nice touch, but then again he gives a touch to everything. The attire in this vid looks like a 1990 feel with the hoodies and jerseys. . .too cool

I listened to it twice in a row to actually let it sink in that Chris Brown was bustin his flow in this shit! Crazy! He can Dance, Sing now Rap? what is this generation coming too? LOL

2010-04-16T12:09:00.000-07:00

remember these joints? . . . those were the days

The Jealous Guys

2010-04-16T09:46:00.000-07:00

I lent my ears to a this dynamic duo who executes each bar ever so freshly. It's not everyday you run into iLL kats such as Biz Y Casa and Ayinde, "The Jealous Guys". This duo spews out pure iLLness - and keep in mind that if ya aint iLL, then you aint on my blog! LOL I know lately my ears have been yearning for a sound more like The Jealous Guys in "today's music." A lot of music artists that spurt here from the Bay Area tend to link all on the same style of flow, but I can vouch that these guys rise above all the Bay Area mob shit stereo type and create their own approach, yet still incorporate their deep roots of San Francisco in their soulfulistic flow. Close your eyes, Open your ears and let The Jealous Guys give it to you Gooooood! :)

Educate yourself more of The Jealous Guys catch em here:
The Jealous Guys Myspace

Tweet: casaIVjune

Tweet:ayinde89

Janelle Monae: Tight Rope

2010-04-14T12:20:00.000-07:00

Ms. Janelle Monae drops something fresh on us on May 18th. The anticipation is killing me. Her Metropolis album made a huge impression on me, so I'm absolutely stoked to see what Ms. Monae has been brewing up in the past year.

This Video "Tightrope" rocks my socks! The choreography is on point and the tux's simply put the icing on the cake. Everything about this chick shines TUBULAR!

2010-04-02T15:05:00.000-07:00

Phony People

2010-04-02T14:23:00.000-07:00

My ear has been yearning a sound that these guys gently serve. I was in shock that at such a young age, these gentlemen could plant such a majestic sound into my soul. My favorite track of there's is "Ceven," thee smoothest I've heard in a lonnnnnng while.

Not everyone could pull off tunes that make you want to listen to all day. I have been on them all day listening to every track they have because I cant help but to. You'll know what I'm talking about once you listen to "Ceven." It blows your mind. Well, hell there entire album has that cool urban vibe.

I really can't put my finger as to what type of genre they fall in, but I can definitely declare these cats are FUCKING AWESOME! They need to make a stop in the Bay Area, for I shall be the loudest fan in the venue! hehehe

Catch em' on: Twitter and Myspace

Shut Up!

2010-04-02T10:39:00.000-07:00

Pac Div Ft. The Cool Kids, anything with The Cool kids rocks hard! . . .on repeat

Source: 21-7 Mag

WHERE'S THE MONEY GEORGE?

2010-04-01T11:02:00.000-07:00

This vid totally caught me off guard but I love the simplicity of it all. Pharell just puts the icing on the cake.

"one pair of training shoes, One sugar lump."

hahah too cute and funny.

-Jenee Yvette

WTF?

2010-03-31T10:57:00.000-07:00